Post Christmas bloggity

Hi and salaams

It’s all over!!! Christmas day has gone and it’s back to normal life.

I had a wicked day, was knackered but it was still excellent. The kids got up at 7.30 which was pretty good considering they got up at 5.30 last year I think!
I was very lucky with my presents, I got 2 cupcake maker machines, a Disney princess bowl, dp mug, dp bath confetti, dp bag thingie I’m gonna put my hijab pins in, a dp bin, a box of wine gums, burlesque on dvd ( yes I know, I can’t help it, I love burlesque) a gothic fairy ornament, a soap and glory gift set, which I’ll be reviewing btw, lace nail sticker thingies, a Thornton’s gift voucher, panamas, and slippers, a lush gift, a betty boop calendar and diary ANNND a betty boop on a swing!!!
My mum got it for me and I love it. Every time I’m in my mums house I considering nicking it, so probably in her best interests to just buy me one too tbh.
The kids got some brilliant presents from Santa, they all got loads but oldest ones main ones were a bike and guitar! Middlest one got a digital camera, this weird ‘big hand’ thing and a ‘light strike gun’…I’m still not sure what it does. I’m guessing it lights up.
 Baby got a ‘deluxe’ light up buzz lightyear and Smokey the ridiculously expensive fire engine.
About lunchtime baby went to his dad’s and my fiancé’s daughter came round. And I’ll admit, I was a little jealous. Cos she was wearing a princess Rapunzel dress. And they don’t come in my size…
my wonderful fiancé cooked dinner, which wasn’t turkey cos turkey: is disgusting. We had chicken. And dinner was delicious. Honestly, I’m not just saying that cos he might watch this, it was proper nice. And I am really grateful cos without him, we wouldn’t of had a Christmas dinner, so thanks babe I love you mostly much.
Anyway that was pretty much the day, I feel asleep at about 7 I think. I was up til 6 though and got up at 8 so I think I have an excuse.
But it really was great and the kids enjoyed it loads, which was kinda the name of the game for me.

Anyway i hope everyone who celebrates had a brilliant day, i'll be filming tomorrow, so subscribe to my channel www.youtube.com/gothmummi to find out as soon as it pops up!

much love everyone x

blogger problems

following people on blogger is not as easy as it should be. i've gone onto peoples pages and done it from my dashboard and it still refuses to come up! WHY?! is anyone else having this problem? can anyone else even see this? am i spending all my time writing to myself?
*sigh*
i'm very frustrated. i do enjoy blogging obviously, but at the same time, i wouldn't stress about it so much if i though absolutely no one ever is going to see it.
i'm going to keep trying, and following people anyway. and pray. alot.
anyway, this is a quick update, i'm going to get some lunch and carry on watching toy story 2 with my baby, while i wait for my princess rockz review to finish uploading.
much love. xx

upload woes and wicked cool socks

well, what a palavar! 
I filmed three videos in one day. i'd spent 3 days feeling awful in bed, and didn't know how long my luck would last, so filmed three one after the other.
the first video took about three attempts, i ran out of battery, my phone went off and i was losing the will to live. finally i filmed my hijab collection and started uploading straight away.
the second video was my underscarves and accessories video. This one, at present has said 51% uploaded for three hours. i think its lying to me to be quite honest. 1/2 my brain is saying 'refresh and start again.' the other half of my brain see's the warning flash up with 'if you navagate away from this page, you will lose your upload.' and says 'NOOOO! DON'T DO IT!'
it has til 4am to change, otherwise i'm restarting it. 
my underscarf video is possibly my most random ramble video ever, bar the one coming soon where i talk rubbish for 3 minutes. *sigh*  i do try not to talk rubbish i promise. but sometimes i lose track of where i am, or a child walks in for absolutely no reason, and i get distracted and forget where i was.

 Onto a far more exciting subject i have wicked cool socks. they are the most wicked cool comfy warmy socks ever made by anyone ever. Their linked with fue, their wool on the outside and have little blobs on the bottom to stop any slippy slidy accidents. you can fold them down, or pull them up for extra toastie warmness. heres a picture:

How excellent are they? honestly, i know your jealous but i'm here to your rescue! their from tesco and their 8 pounds. their actually 3 for 2 atm which is even better obviously. click the purple: heres the linky:
see: how good am i to you: they do international delivers too now, although its probably a bit much to but the from tesco if you live in Canada for example.
anyway thats my blog for the day. i've uploaded one video as i said, and theres another two to come. dont say i never do anything for you.
much love and kisses and warm socks love. 

Life on Youtube.

Wow. Vlogging is ALOT harder than it looks!!! All those really basic, straight through, no edit videos thats looks simple: Well, they ain't. I'm uploading my third, and probably most important video, ''Why i wear Hijab.''
I wrote out a very 'loose' script, and managed to balance it in front of me so i could remember exactly what points i wanted to make etc.
i made a comment at the beginning, that i said i would elaborate on. about 3/4 through the video, i should've made the point.
i didnt.
i forgot.
oh no...
straight through, one take on a 10 minute video and i had to start the whole thing for the sake of 45 seconds.
and just as i'm finishing up and saying goodbye, the cat climbs on me. he'd been looking at me suspiciously for the whole video, and decided to make his attack right at the end.
so everyone gets to see my open mouthed laugh as a special bonus!
i also filmed another video, another tag i wasn't tagged in. hubby to be had taken the boys out to dinner so i could film undisturbed, so i took advantage of the quiet!
i was going to add an OOTD to this blog but totally forgot to take a picture, so sorry!
i hope everyone enjoyed thanksgiving, and has a fabulous weekend!
laters xxx

So far, not so good...

Trying to film a video while recovering from flu, not so easy. i am Admant that i'm gonna do this video tonight though, even if it kills me!
part of it is guilt, that i told sister amena that i'd do the video 'this weekend'. that was a month ago almost! I'm sure she has much more important things to worry about, but if i say i'm going to do something i feel like i should do it, i'm that kind of person.

One cheery up thing in a day of not so greatness * there's other things i wont write about* was mspraisegirl1's video, mentioning me. that was really appriciated and much loved that you would take out the time to mention your subscribers :D
so anyway, a new video should be up tomorrow, i'm going to film tonight. forgive me if its not perfect, i'm tired, its 2.25AM and i'm recovering still. 
Hope everyone is well, and i'll see you all soon. xxx

oh my days..

I have never felt so ill in all my life.
I may have jinxed myself by putting a jokey status on facebook that i was 'dying of death'. i woke up yesterday afternoon actually thinking i was dying. it took me two hours to actually inhale any ventolin, as soon as i breathed in i coughed it straight back out. i had chest pain, a high temperature but was freezing under two duvets, i violently threw up all over my carpet and the pain in my hips and legs was like I'd been hit by a car.
The doctor came out: i have flu. proper flu, not 'i have flu but its actually a bad cold.'  He gave me strong antibiotics and anti sickness tablets. the pain in my legs was so bad and i could even lift my arms up. there really isn't words to describe how ill i felt. i couldn't even cry properly, i didn't even have the energy for tears.

I'm feeling alot better today though. I'm on so much co-codamol, antibiotics and cough syrup I'm barely here but I'm not on deaths door. my chest feels like i've got a band wrapped round it, and my head hurts but by temperature and pain is loads better.

Probably wont blog for a few days now, want to recover properly. But i know i'm getting my flu jab as soon as i'm recovered!!

Love Love And Yaters.

Wedding venue's are better in your brain

The day didn't start fabulously as I woke up with chest pain, hacking cough, headache, sore throat and joint pain. I really didn't want to leave my bed! But after a ridiculous amount of ventolin, cough syrup and Merocaine, ( the absolute BEST throat sweets EVER. they numb your throat so much, I burn my mouth drinking a cup of tea cos I couldn't feel how hot it was), I was feeling slightly more human. I'd already decided I was going to the wedding venue today anyway, even if Stuart had to roll my still warm corpse all the way there. ( We've canceled three times because of my health.)

 The first time I stayed at the hotel was about 5 years ago. I absolutely fell in love with it. I stayed there twice and really loved it both times. The rooms were lovely, the foyer etc was really classy looking, the staff wonderfully helpful and super friendly. It had a really relaxing atmosphere. So the first place I thought for my wedding was this hotel. On booking our initial appointment, I was told they'd undergone a huge re-developmental improvement. So to say I was excited at the prospect of my favourite hotel being Even Better doesn't cover it!

 So we arrive at the hotel in question...Well. 'Underwhelmed' is an understatement. One of my favourite things the hotel offered was a beautiful fountain at the entrance. That's gone, and is now replaced with a big, circular fluffy sofa. The room they showed us for the wedding breakfast was tiny. It looked cramped with only three tables in it, with about 8 chairs around each table. So with 24 people in the room, it would be claustraphobic. The wedding co-ordinator then says that they can get a maximum of 60 people in there! SIXTY! sixty anorexic small people possibly, but no way would 60 regular sized people get in there comfortably.
The absolute worst part for me...the colour. The room was a muddy brown/green colour. My theme is red and black. Who the hell gets married and their colour scheme matches muddy brown?! 
I was seriously disappointed because I was so sure that this hotel was going to be 'THE ONE'.
The evening reception room was about as brilliant as the rest to be honest. It has a private bar, which is nice. The room itself is huge, with a stage, but very dingy, and nothing particularly exciting about it. 
Another thing that struck me as odd. I asked where the disabled toilets were and they looked at each other and said 'oh i dont know!' 
Brilliant. They weren't even sure if there was any. There was as it happens but I didnt look at them. What's the point? I think I'm going to be looking around for somewhere else. I know I wont be happy on the day if I have it at this hotel and this is the only wedding i'm ever planning on having so i want it to be good.

The thing is, I actually feel guilty. the ladies who were showing us around were really helpful and lovely, but i felt such disappointment and anticlimax at every new thing they showed us. I don't think its for me to be honest. I think its going to have to be Stuarts husbandly duty to tell them 'thanks but no thanks', because I'm too much of a wimp to do it myself!

I just hope the next hotel we find can give us what we're looking for, and the date we want.

*** i have purposely not named the hotel, so don't ask me what it is. I don't want to sway other people away from it, and if anyone has had their wedding there and had a lovely day, i'm not about to slate it***

first blog/ planning my wedding

 This blog comes under another name for me. That name, is procrastination.
I had a blog, as many of us have, on another site. Its so irrelevant to my life now, its been so many years since i actually wrote anything in it, i thought i'd start a new one...well...kind of...
In actual fact i'm supposed to be planning my wedding, looking online at site after site of crap that i don't want, searching for the specific things i want to my colour scheme. And i got bored. so this happened...
I have actually been meaning to start another blog for awhile, but me meaning to do things is a regular occurrence. i have lists of lists written on my lists of things i need to do. I used to set aside a few hours a week to make my phone calls, write my emails, update my things what need updating. But my life is so erratic now that i just don't have the routine to do such tasks. i do have time, don't get me wrong. i just don't do it.The is something in that routine thing people talk about.
you know where you are for a start. what you're doing, who you're doing it with. Living by the seat of your skinny jeans may seen like a good idea, but you never know whats happening. Don't get me wrong, i also think a rigid routine can be as damaging. ' life gets in the way when you're making plans' as they say, and if you know exactly what you're doing at every single given moment, something will crop up you haven't accounted for, and throw the whole thing out of whack.
Basically, have a routine, plan plans but dont live your whole life by it. I think an insecure person lives by strict routine, same as a disfunctional one lives by spontaneity.
 
On the subject of wedding planning, sort of anyway, its bloody hard!!!
My glamorous sister Twiggy, planned hers in 4 months. FOUR. how? I have absolutely no idea what i'm doing, who i'm inviting or what we're eating. These are the things i do know:
1. Its a goth wedding with a red/black theme.
2. There will be no alcohol served at dinner.
3. said dinner is 2 courses, not 3.
4. i will be offending people, as i'm not inviting alot of people.
5. There is nearly as many people involved in the actual wedding as there is guests in total.
6. i want a guitar not a piano as i walk down the aisle.
7. i want burlesque dancers.
8. only children who share mine/my fiance's DNA are invited.

That's actually not so bad now i have it written down. i've chosen my dress, the bridesmaids dresses, the flower girls dress and shoes. We have a photographer, i think anyway, i have a fabulous miss Pinkie doing my hair and i'm doing my own nails.
I am seeing the wedding coordinator on halloween, how fitting, so i will blog back then. until then my beauties, Yaters.

(Ps: All my blogs will be this sized text. I have awful eyesight, and anyone reading could sturggle if it's smaller. if its small, poorly sighted people can't read it, if its big well sighted and poor sighted can read it. win win,)