Friday, 22 August 2014

so its been like FOREVER right????

So. It's been awhile. Well, let's be honest, it's been 9 months. 

So much happened it really did. Cutting a long horrid story short, my partner left me when I was 15 weeks pregnant. Yeah. I had to contend with that while pregnant. I had to arrange bills into my name, finances etc. I couldn't pretend to be happy, when I was so heartbroken. I honestly had the intention of making a video, and felt so guilty but I just couldn't bring myself to talk about anything.
My pregnancy wasn't easy obviously, but not as awful as anticipated! I had loads of scans and checks to make sure babe was growing well. I couldn't of done it without Charlotte, my best friend. She was there for me every single time I needed her, getting buses to meet me at the hospital to meet me from the taxi and push me huge pregnant hippopotamus body around. She was always o  the end of the phone and listened to me say the same stuff over and over again. I don't think I had a single positive word to say throughout my entire pregnancy and she never once told me to "cheer up" or "get over it'"
I couldn't of done it without her and she was there to witness my beautiful baby entering the world. I love her like a sister and can never repay her for everything she did for me.

I had the best Labour and birth out of all 4 of my babies and gave birth to Jack-Thomas by induced labour 2 weeks early, on the 30th of April at 8.30pm. He weighed 6lbs 4ozs. He went into special care baby unit (SCUBU) when he was 16 1/2 hours old and stayed til he was 13 days old. He had jaundice and low blood sugar and had to have a feeding tube. The worst part was when I had to leave after 5 days, and go home without my baby. Also on that day I found out a girl I knew from my old village had died of cancer, aged 22.
When I got to bring Jack home, it was pretty hectic. He was extremely clingy and didn't like being put down all all!!

Stuart and I got back together after a lot of talking and honesty. We still aren't living together but things are ok.
Jack is getting on really well, he's the most smiley, happy little lad, LOVES his food!! He has a problem with his eye but hopefully it's something easily fixed. 

This is a truly watered down, short hand version of events, I really feel awful f or just vanishing without a trace. My camera cable has ceased to be, so will attempt to film off my 2nd biggest boys ipad! I am busy atm, it's been the school holidays and its the Boys baptism next week so I've had much to do, but they're back at school the beginning of September, so I'll have more time.
Be good to each other x

3 comments:

  1. Good to see you back! I have to say, I'm more than a little annoyed about him leaving you to deal with pregnancy on your own. You really should make him work hard for your forgiveness! Congratulations on your new baby, lovely name :) x

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  2. Good to hear that you are okay and many congrats to your baby boy. These men in your life, sons and partner are very blessed to have a very strong, introspective, intelligent, spiritual woman in their lives. I'm sure your boys know this, and I pray your partner realizes this ASAP! Much love, light to you.

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