so its been like FOREVER right????

So. It's been awhile. Well, let's be honest, it's been 9 months. 

So much happened it really did. Cutting a long horrid story short, my partner left me when I was 15 weeks pregnant. Yeah. I had to contend with that while pregnant. I had to arrange bills into my name, finances etc. I couldn't pretend to be happy, when I was so heartbroken. I honestly had the intention of making a video, and felt so guilty but I just couldn't bring myself to talk about anything.

My pregnancy wasn't easy obviously, but not as awful as anticipated! I had loads of scans and checks to make sure babe was growing well. I couldn't of done it without Charlotte, my best friend. She was there for me every single time I needed her, getting buses to meet me at the hospital to meet me from the taxi and push me huge pregnant hippopotamus body around. She was always o  the end of the phone and listened to me say the same stuff over and over again. I don't think I had a single positive word to say throughout my entire pregnancy and she never once told me to "cheer up" or "get over it'"

I couldn't of done it without her and she was there to witness my beautiful baby entering the world. I love her like a sister and can never repay her for everything she did for me.

I had the best Labour and birth out of all 4 of my babies and gave birth to Jack-Thomas by induced labour 2 weeks early, on the 30th of April at 8.30pm. He weighed 6lbs 4ozs. He went into special care baby unit (SCUBU) when he was 16 1/2 hours old and stayed til he was 13 days old. He had jaundice and low blood sugar and had to have a feeding tube. The worst part was when I had to leave after 5 days, and go home without my baby. Also on that day I found out a girl I knew from my old village had died of cancer, aged 22.

When I got to bring Jack home, it was pretty hectic. He was extremely clingy and didn't like being put down all all!!

Stuart and I got back together after a lot of talking and honesty. We still aren't living together but things are ok.

Jack is getting on really well, he's the most smiley, happy little lad, LOVES his food!! He has a problem with his eye but hopefully it's something easily fixed. 

This is a truly watered down, short hand version of events, I really feel awful f or just vanishing without a trace. My camera cable has ceased to be, so will attempt to film off my 2nd biggest boys ipad! I am busy atm, it's been the school holidays and its the Boys baptism next week so I've had much to do, but they're back at school the beginning of September, so I'll have more time.

Be good to each other x

Gothmummi: I CAN'T SLEEP! | Insomnia vlog

insomnia vlog

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7SdWNEEKE88

Gothmummi: My Birthday present "Haul"

Gothmummi: My Birthday shopping haul!

Ted Baker Star Quality Vanity Case Review

So my Auntie bought me the Ted Baker Star Quality Vanity Case for my birthday, ( which is actually in July, but was given early as I may not see her ) and I LOVE it! Absolutely ADORE it!

                                     How pretty is this vanity case?! it has a jewel!

It has Everything a girl could possibly need to feel beautiful! the case it a decent size and very deep, and the best bit...... it has Products inside!

                                    All the beautiful things!    

                     The vanity case is actually so deep, everything can stand up inside it, and the lid still closes!

When I say it has Everything a girl could need, I really do mean EVERYTHING! Here's what you get inside this beautiful gift set:

                    Gorgeous smelling Bath foam and body wash in matching scents to make you smell like the princess you are.

                  Body scrub to slough off those pesky dry and flaky patches and Body souffle to keep dry skin at bay.

                       Body lotion and hand lotion to soften and smooth.

From the minute to step in the bath to the moment you're clean and dry, this gift set has you covered! All the products are matching in scent, so there's no need to worry about a clash of smells. The scent is gorgeous, I can't describe it other than its a grown up, subtle and luxurious smell that really does make you smell and feel so fresh and clean! 
The whole set usually retails at £45, but I've found it on Ebay  for as little as £25 including postage!
I really think its worth the money, its a beautiful set, chock full of gorgeous full sized products, and the case is fantastic, reusable and useful and absolutely stunning!

I'm very grateful that my wonderful Auntie got this for me as a gift, and i really recommend it to all my lovelies and gentlefish, as a gift for birthdays, Eid, Christmas ( never too early to prepare and stock up after all!) or as a treat for yourself! Why not? You deserve it :)

I hope you found this review useful,  click  Here to go to Ebay listings, or simply Google to search in your country :)
I really can't rave enough about this gift set, so I'm going to be doing a video review too! Check out my youtube channel to see when the review is up, and in the mean time, feel free to watch my other videos and maybe subscribe too if you feel so inclined  :)
( i will edit/post a link to the video once its live)

Hope everyone is well, Be Good to Each other.

Lancome hypnose Drama Mascara

I have used many mascaras. hundreds probably. I'm picky. I've been blessed with naturally long, curled lashes, although they are very pale. I never curl them or wear false lashes, although there are still some non believers out there!
I don't know what tempted me to a high end mascara, but whatever it was, I'm thankful for it!

Lancome Hypnose Drama is my all time favourite mascara. In my opinion, it does exactly as it claims. I will often use two mascaras together, with this there is no need.

 The brush is curved, so you have two sides to use. Using the flat side of the brush first, you wiggle it up the length of your lashes to give them volume and body. Turn over and use the curved side to give great structure and separation of each lash. two coats is all you need!

i absolutely ADORE this mascara BUT.....

its £22.
For me, this is a lot to spend on one mascara. But is it worth it?
i really think it is. from the first time I used to to the last, it really finishes off my make up wonderfully. My lashes are the blackest they've ever been from any mascara I've ever used. it does last too, as you only need a couple of coats ( i usually use four.)

                                         ( very bad photo alert may be needed here...:)

this was 2 coats, done very quickly (its 11.30pm) and you can see how pale and almost invisible they are naturally.

I'm really pleased i bought this again, its as good as i remember and I definitely won't go so long with my favourite product ever again!
it should be available in all good beauty supply stores, but Google is your friend, so check out stockists near you!

LOVE LOVE.
x